Don't read this, if you're in a Good Mood.
I discovered it years ago , that I’m lots happier when I don’t pay attention to the news . Ignorance truly is bliss . But ignorance doesn’t stop bad things from happening . And here , this society , this mass media mega-center is controlled by and for those that thrive on negativity . A culture of rubber-neckers , who constantly revive the chronic misgivings in human nature. A social order unable to evolve past the train wreck mentality.
Why do people watch Law and Order ? This show rips its cases from the headlines and changes the names and maybe a few small details. Is it because we want to see justice done ? I don’t think so. I think we’re feeding some darker part of our psyche. I think we, as a culture, care a lot more about the crime than the punishment. We care more about who killed who, and how they did it, than what happens to the killer afterwards.
My homepage carries AP / CNN feeds, and this morning, for some fucked up reason, I decided to watch them. That fucked up reason is 9 year old Jessica Lunsford. Who was abducted by a known sex offender, was raped and kept in a closet for three days, in a house police visited but decided not to search at the time. Her hands were bound with stereo wire , she was wrapped in trash bags and buried alive. This happened in Florida but it could’ve happened anywhere.
This is news .
This is more than I want to know.
This is what I didn’t want to see but couldn’t stop myself from looking.
This makes me sick on so many levels.
I’ve never been able to understand how a person could do something like this. Sure, we’ve all thought about killing someone, our boss , that dick who cut us off in traffic, elected officials, alex cassum. But there’s a built in safety mechanism in most of us, it knows right from wrong and sets off the appropriate mental bells and whistles when were about to cross the lines . My point is that we’ve all thought about doing bad things. Not abducting molesting and murdering a child, but something. What’s so different about these people, they actually can ? It makes me sick that a person could do this , could take a beautiful innocent child from her family, abuse her and kill her in this horrendous way.
I know if John Couey ends up in the general population of any Florida State correctional facility, he’ll be abused and raped and probably murdered. That’s [B]IF[/B] he manages to dodge the death penalty. But that doesn’t make me feel any better about it, because this kinda thing happens all the time. This kinda thing will happen again like a re-run of Law and Order, just in a different state, with the names changed to protect the guilty. What I want to know is what was missing from John Coueys head ? What psychological/physiological difference allowed him to do this? There’s got to be a way to isolate this difference and pluck it from those afflicted.
I question the journalists who could write this stuff down, make a report and put together video clips about this just to sell ad space or air time. I have no children of my own, I have nieces and it would be horrible enough to hear they died , but to know they were raped and buried alive would drive me plumb-fuckin-insane.
I’m wondering how seeing or reading this makes the Lunsfords feel.
I’m wondering how anyone made the grade, if we all slept through our ethics classes.
I’m wondering why journalists don’t spend more time looking for solutions instead of just peddling ad space around the problem.
I question myself that I clicked on that link thinking; maybe there will be some information there that I can use in one of my fictional stories. Which makes me a pretty shitty person too. Little different from anyone else who profits by the tragedy of others.
There are things that get in your head that you just can’t get out .
I want to forget this.
I want to empty all the shit that’s in my head fill it back up with happy.
I’m done with “news” I’m tuning out .
I’m looking to get back to zero on the karmic scoreboard.
I want to do something keeps these things from ever happening.
I want the Jessica Lunsfords to come home.