What are you listening to right now?
So am I good or bad
The way that things did turn out
I did only make you sad
And we cried and we cried on the phone
Oh but in my mind
You were never that all alone
<3
I lost this album a little while back.
I... I need it back. Now.
Si vis pacem, para bellum
This is why we can't have nice things.
this is how I feel right now.
and side note,
this is the very first song that ever made me think of James and me, before we were together, this.
I was eight months pregnant with Zachariah (Lily wouldn't come for a few more years) and it was a rushed (pressured to get it done already before another child was born out of wedlock, by my grandma) elopement.
Our guests were Gabriel and Trevor, James' (then) fourteen year old brother, James' dad and stepmom (who his dad was separated from, and who both served as witnesses) and some guy we didn't know that his step mom brought along.
James' ring was a piece of costume jewelry that looked like a fake knock off of something someone in Goodfella's would have worn. Only ring we had that fit him, a ring that was found and hung around in our stuff for a couple years until it served that purpose that day. I wore a long black velvet skirt and a gross baby pink cardigan, only nice top I had that fit me. The judge went back nd forth between giving James approving sorrowful looks and me disgusted ones the whole ceremony. I shook through the whole thing while he was calm as could be. I remember every word of his vows to me, but cannot remember giving mine, I remember giving them, but there is no sound to the memory. Some pictures were taken by his step mom, but the film was lost. We didn't consummate it for almost a week, not my choice. Our only gift was a small bouquet of flowers in a ceramic teapot sent by my grandma a week later. We didn't tell anyone unless it came up in conversation. Some family members didn't know for over a year.
How is that for sad?
Man.
Well, if it makes you feel any better, I only have about 4 pictures of mine, we did it three days before i had to file the paperwork for my visa or get kicked out of the country. He wore a suit and shoes that had been bought for his grandfathers funeral two months prior, and i wore a black pencil skirt (also originally purchased for the funeral) a white lace top and a black blazer. our only witnesses were his parents and a couple of cops that were standing up the back of the courthouse for whatever reason. We went and bought rings about an hour before the ceremony, really only because his parents said we should. I didn't even tell my parents until about a week or two after it had happened, because even though they knew we wanted to get married I thought they would freak out. Of course the longer I left it without telling them the worse I felt, and in the end they were shocked and surprised but happy for us. My husband didn't even tell his best friend for months, who got pretty upset when he finally found out, just couldn't understand why he wouldn't have asked him to be there kind of thing.
That's all coming up on three years ago this month, and while I don't regret it I wish it would have been a little nicer, with at least someone from my family there and less rushed. I think I'm going to plan something for our 5 years, vow renewal with a party afterwards, which is really all I would have wanted to begin with.
You definitely should, Kit. 
Yes, absolutely!
hah! Frankenweenie avatar
Niiice!
I love that song Hattie.
Kit, I appreciate you sharing.
This song is so damn catchy:
This is why we can't have nice things.
On Lily's insistence
which, you know, gets me listening to this... of course.
Great atmospheric Kinks song. Probably my favourite.
Been listening to Pink's songs all day.
Yeah. SBTRKT is the shit.
Got this in my head.
From when I was a teenager: Atreyu - My Fork In The Road (Your Knife In My Back)
There are absolutely no words to express how much I want to see Portishead live.
Gonna go see these kids play live on Saturday, will be fun!
Sounds like a great band. Thanks Imke!
This... I wish so much that the sound quality was as good as the CD I have on,
I doth founded other videos, and other soused words,
Apparently they are a local Portland street band, on corners with their accordions and cellos and glockenspiels and recorders and trumpets and kazoos and ukuleles and, um, stuff.
One of James' work mates (thank you Rosie for the term) sent us home a CD he bought when he saw them on a corner.
That mix Tuff made us.
which is weird and interesting and ridiculously emotional.
which is weird and interesting and ridiculously emotional.
"...kind of like Tuffy."
I'm glad at least one person has listened to it.
This is why we can't have nice things.
I like it.
We'll see what fish fins turn out looking like with the influence.
Tuff, I use mac and haven't worked out what free thing to unzip shit with. I downloaded it but that's as far as I got.
Try this: http://archiverapp.com/how-to-open-rar-files-on-mac-os-x.php
This is why we can't have nice things.
I downloaded it, and I keep intending to listen to it, but I keep getting distracted and forgetting I have it.
I listened to it, too. My favourites were Stranger Love and If Drinkin' Don't Kill Me.
which is weird and interesting and ridiculously emotional.
"...kind of like Tuffy."
I'm glad at least one person has listened to it.
My favorite thing about Tuffy.
Of course I was going to listen, even if it took me a bit to get to it. What sort of friend do you think I am. 
why don't you ever talk to us about your own music you make?
We run when we
We dare not to stay
I want to stay
- Because I don't talk about it generally.
- Because it is of very little interest to most people, here or otherwise.
There is, iirc, a short bit on the mixtape however.
This is why we can't have nice things.
I've downloaded archiver but now I cannae find the playlist! Please link me!
There is, iirc, a short bit on the mixtape however.
Yes, I noticed.
A little somethinsomethin to brighten up your day.
This is why we can't have nice things.
Thanks duck!
