Pointless Announcements

Good. Because people like that constantly complain and try to intimdate, and think no one will ever complain about them. I can't stand bullies.

Yes, good for you! I'm writing a letter of complaint to my university about the librarian and the admin who I had to deal with when I had that problem with my tuition fees. I think no one ever complains so I'm standing up for myself for once because I would have been fired from any of my jobs for acting like they do. I pay thousands for university and they treat me like shit. No way.

hi I can't read through 300 unread posts so I assume NOTHING has happened

- school is hard
- boyfriend bought me the nexus 10 for my birthday
- i'm having a big party and you're all invited
- i was eating salsa earlier today and i put it down by my bed cause i got sleepy and then i stepped in it later when i got out of bed cause i forgot about it
- my blind kitty is still pudgy and cute and sleepy at all times
- i'm thinking about moving to seattle shortly after i graduate

so am I the only one who wants to know which song it was?

If you move to Seattle then you will be closer and I will have a reason to visit seattle.

yay. Move to seattle! Stop in Portland on your way!

I'm so excited about this road trip I'm planning and getting to see most of you!

I'm surprised at how long Soulja Boy pretended to be a legitimate artist.

It was Venus As a Boy.

Yay Sema! I even remember what the little things may be

Seattle, yay!!

^Gold.

It's been two weeks today. I can't believe it's been two weeks.

I've been writing in my journal for the first time in years. I want to write down everything that happened in the week after he died. It's taking me a while, I get the worst writer's cramp. I've been working on it for over a week now. I really want to get it done so I make sure I don't miss anything.

Things are weird right now. My life still hasn't gotten back to normal because I've been so sick. I'm ready to get back to work, I think. I've had so much time to myself lately I'm wondering if being around people again is going to freak me out. It's happened before, dealing with grief. I grieve on my own and think I'm ready for the world again, but as soon as I get back in it, I lose it. Happened with my dad, happened with my grandfather. But I've had more time this time. So maybe it will be different.

I don't know if questioning is a stage of grief, but if it is, that's the phase I'm in. I have so many questions for him that I know I will never know the answers too. I mostly want to know if he knew the end was coming, I can't get past the fact that he donated all of his suits. I don't know.

I miss him.

After the funeral they handed out vases so that we could take flowers from the arrangements. The last of those flowers is dying, but I don't want to throw them out yet.

Wow, Melody, the flower thing is such a beautiful idea. I'm glad they did that.

Maybe you could iron the flower between wax paper, and keep it in the journal as a bookmark? That way it will stay virtually forever. Try the preservative with another flower first to see if you like it. Your journal is wonderful.
http://www.ehow.com/how_6392541_preserve-flowers-wax-paper.html

Thanks, I'll look into that.

http://www.ehow.com/how_5456_preserve-flowers-with.html

Also this. I tried it a few times and they look great. You may also find glycerine extract at the chemist's.

Lost 10 pounds already since staring my diet. But it's going to be the next 20 that will take some effort.

I'm getting shit about the trip from my family. Now starting to question whether it's a good idea or not, but I reallllllly want to.

Chenoa, you've had a hard time and you totally deserve to have some fun. I think it's a fantastic idea. You need time out for yourself.

Yeah, you deserve some time off for a bit and if you are able to have that time you should. If people are going to cause trouble for you about it it may be in the best interest of you and the children to postpone it however, I'll still look forward to seeing you whether it is sooner or later.

My PA:

I took all the cans and bottles in to return. God how I hate that chore, so gross, this time especially.

I don't know how things are everywhere else, but in Oregon we have a five cent deposit on all carbonated beverages and water bottles. I know a handful of other states have similar things. It is to encourage recycling. You pay an extra nickle for every carbonated or water drink item and then get your nickle back when you return them to the store- the return process involves a machine that you feed the bottles and cans into one at a time then when you are finished it spits out a ticket you take in to the store to redeem for your cash.

The bottle rooms are so gross. They stink. Are generally outside, three walls of concrete and glass. In winter it is so cold and windy, in summer you nearly suffocate from the smell and heat.

I always put it off and end up regretting doing so, because of how many I have to stand there and feed into the machine. This time I hadn't done it since around Halloween.

I got $16.85 for my effort.

I know I deserve it and of course I would miss my children... Starting to think I should just take a typical one week vacation to Florida or something.

I finally finished DeathNote just now.

I had to take a break after the whole thing with L in #25. Just started watching again last week.

Oh man. Is all.

Man.

The manga or the anime? I started reading it a few years ago but I forgot what issue I read last, so meh. But I was really into it.

DeathNote and Gantz are the only manga I've ever read.

30 might seem a lot, but that's how much I've gained since I was at a healthy weight. Or at least, a weight I was happy with. I'm 6'1", but I lost all this weight before when I was in college. I put it back on here. So it's gotta go. And yeah, I might be a bit colder, hahaha.

My grandmother passed away. And while she and I weren't very close due to distance and her poor relationship with my mother, I still wept. I tried to see her at least once every year that I went to stay with my father's mother. My mom's sister is taking this really hard because she was the one who stuck around and took care of my grandmother. She's my favorite aunt on that side of the family, the only other redhead in the family. I want to go up there to help her with everything. I know it's got to be hard because she's probably having to get everything settled too. I'm beginning to think my wild dreams of travel were silly to begin with.
I don't just want to go up to help with my aunt, but also to see my favored grandmother. She's in the hospital right now and while she's one of the strongest women I know, I'm just worried that it's going to be another case of my not getting to see her... I didn't get to go up to visit this past Thanksgiving when I normally would. I can't let that happen again.

Ordered 9 boxes of Girl Scout cookies.

Sorry for your loss, Chenoa.

I'm sorry for your loss, Chenoa, and I'm sorry for not reading anything in this thread before posting about my stupid Girl Scout cookies. I hope you feel better soon.

*hugs* Chenoa. I'm really sorry you have to go through this, I hope you are able to see the people you need to see.

Big hug, Chenoa! We're here for you.

Sorry about your grandmother, chenoa. You aren't silly about travel. Everyone yearns for a break. And apparently you are very giving, and thoughtful to your family. Take care.

My mom thinks I'm being too hasty about wanting to go up and visit my living grandmother. I'm just thinking about all that I've been through recently and I just feel like I need this. I feel so all over the place. Like I could break down at any point. But I know I have to stay together for my boys. I want to stay together for my boys. Family is so important to me and there's all this stuff going on and what else can I do but at least be there.

Me too!

I'm sorry for your loss.

The anime.

It seems like I am going to have to red the manga now.

Alien vs.Predator should have never had people in it. It should have been a war documentary made by Ken Burns and narrated by Morgan Freeman. I would love that movie. I'd watch it every damn day.

Neville should've killed Voldemort.

I'm glad you enjoyed Death Note. If you have Netflix you could try the first two live action movies. They made some changes so that the whole story fits within 4 hours.

I'll probably watch the live action movies next. It is really great. I don't tend to get that emotionally involved with shows very often, so it is interesting.

Neville killed Nagini, so in a sense he did kill Voldemort. Everyone who destroyed a horocrux killed him, Harry just had the final victory in front of many witnesses with the piece of him that had a human like body.

I know. What I meant was that he should've been the revealed "chosen one," you know? Suddenly Harry isn't so inherently special, but that doesn't take away from his extreme value that came from his determination and courage.

Neville grew up to be hot as fuuuck and Harry didn't really grow much at all... I think it's pretty clear who came out ahead.

What Jess said.

Though it makes me feel pervy to agree.

That would have been a really good twist, however.

Harry is actually one of my least favorite characters in the whole story. As is Voldemort one of my least favorite villains ever.

So many other people are unsung hero's, in the whole ordeal. And so many of the side villains are better than whiny old Voldemort.

I think we all know who really won at growing up out of the harry potter cast.

Hermione is pretty awesome. Probably one of the best female role model characters to come along ever for young girls and women.

And Emma whatsherface is quite hot at this point.

Voldemort chose wrong, but that was the whole point.

Pretty much.

Have you finished reading all of them? I remember you said you were on six last, I think, and waiting till Izzi caught up or something?