Pointless Announcements

Now I shall cleverly make nondescript posts about nothing in hopes that no one will figure out who I am!

That is the point of PA though isn't it?

My grandma has been bugging me for six years now to tell her what items from her house i want left to me, and while everyone else has been making lists I have refused because it is just wrong in my opinion.

She just got on my about it again, and about how there is too much stuff and my aunt is just going to get rid of what ever isn't allocated already etc.

So I broke down and named the entire contents of the library and the kitchen, tell my aunt that is two whole rooms she won't have to worry about at all.

My grandma laughed at me and said Okay.

Hopefully she will drop the conversation with me now, and also, hopefully I just saved a lot of important things nobody else cares about because they aren't fancy and "worth" anything.

You really should get dressed soon Tuff, it is kind of awkward, you know?

This would probably work.

PA - I like you, Tuffy.

Parents have gone out on a double date and I have no idea what to do with myself. Well I know what I should do and I just have to get off my ass and do it. I really want to paint today too. I'll probably do that when they get back and hog the tv though.

I... feel... terrible. I moved all of my stuff into my friend's house before coming to EP, where he already was. I swear, I double-checked every door to make sure I locked it up really tight. Then I checked again on the outside. Every door, locked. He went back today, and he texted me that I left the front door unlocked. BULLSHIT! I can't possibly imagine how I could've fucked that up. Luckily nothing was stolen, and he's not mad, but I feel horrible cuz I sure as well would be pissed if I was him.

This kind of thing keeps me awake at night. My brain's just shutting down a lot recently.

Those two sentences don't make sense right next to each other. But you get it.

You seem to be pretty stressed out as of late.

Maybe you need some space to yourself to chill out or something for a while?

It was a nice day and I took babygirl to the beach. She got very sandy.

why am I watching the news?

doom and gloom and shock

Will someone call my phone? Or facebook me and maybe that noise will be loud enough? I have no idea where it's got off to.

Edit: Amber is the bestest.

Trying to find the phone when it doesn't want found is the worst.

I found mine in the vitamin box inside the kitchen cupboard the other day. No clue how it got there.

Always. I hate the news.

Need to go out soon and buy dinner + dessert for today!

Off to shopping for the party!

I've enough space. I'm just getting closer and closer to some very, very big decisions.

I have a brilliant business plan that I've gotten a lot of investors for, and it has to happen very fuckin' soon. I came up with it two years ago, but only when the fucking competition started on their versions of it did these assholes suddenly jump on the wagon. A friend of mine is working hard on reducing costs while I'm working on increasing capital, and it's gonna take everything from me to do this.

But... film is my passion, my love, my sanctuary. For years, all I've ever said coming out of a movie is, "I'm not going to be happy until I work in film." So I have that project with that friend of mine and it's coming out great.

But now it's decision time. Gambling with my future. Make my father happy, have enough income to get married, and maybe enough to set my life, or follow my dreams.

Luckily, I just got out of an amazing party where I met up with a lot of great people from back in the day, and I'm feeling quite "happy." Now I have to work on my resume and cover letters, and apply to a few internships tomorrow.

Why the FUCK do I have to grow up. Fuck this. I'm gonna dream of flying to Neverland.

Speed shopping in 1h30. We'll be making chicken breast baked with sweet potatoes, carrots and onions, we already have a few cakes, pastry and lots of nachos. We'll have 3 different dips for those - salsa, sour cream & garlic and cheese.

Yay for rum and Mojitos and Daiquiris and all that jazz! 10 hours till midnight.

1/1/78

See you next year, everybody. Hope 2013 is better for all of you.

Growing up is tedious and difficult.

If you can be responsible and follow your dreams that is the ideal.

I think you need to follow your dreams.

Life is full of tough surprises, and unknown responsibilities loom around every corner. There will always be time for those, as life doesn't care if you are happy before it pours its wrath and problems on you.

Take it from someone who always chose "make her grandma happy", I am about to be 32 and haven't accomplished a single one of my personal dreams yet, I've raised happy children, so that is good, but none of those things where I said to myself under my breath 'I must do this' have I ever done because I was bending to someone else's will about them every time. And at the end of the day, it didn't give me anything close to a set future or satisfaction that I chose the better path. I could have had happy children and followed my dreams too.

You should do what will make you happiest.

Today is our eleventh wedding anniversary.

^ I didn't mean for those two posts to seem related.

Happy Anniversary!

PA: I wanted to reflect on 2012 but this year has been filled with way too much to look back on.So a summary: I've been in and out of love, lost some loved ones, worked myself to the bone at work and school, had a lovely vacation, and now I'm ready to do what I'm set out to do.

Hope you all have a nice celebration.

Thanks Jaz.

2012 was difficult. Not much else I may say.

I usually save my serious reflections until the day before my birthday.

Its new years eve. I have no plans. Besides wine.
I wish I had something exiting to tell everyone. But I dont.
Hoot hollering shooting guns this weekend.

Someone in the right timezone create the January picture thread. I have pictures to post but the Decemeber one reminds me to much of christmas.

My plans got cancelled so I've spent my day watching Twin Peaks. Totally closing this year with a bang.

2012 was a pain in my tuchas.

2012 was just ok.

Tonight we're going to hang out at our friend's apartment, will be just 4 of us. My friend is making dinner and I made dessert (chocolate panna cottas) ... I also made a pink grapefruit and pomegranate syrup that I'm going to use to make cocktails of the alcoholic and non alcoholic variety (my friend is 3 months preggers)

Oh i went to an awesome show this weekend.
Brought Cassie and my brother Nick along. It was there first goof punk show and they both had a blast. I crown surfed, danced and screamed my lungs out.

Fuck New Years, I just wanna go to sleep.

I shaved my head last month and now I'm considering keeping it short because growing it out is such a pain in the ass

I wish hair didn't grow so slowly

I've spent the past three hours trying not to sit on anything because I might get dog hair on my dress.

Why must my dog shed so much?

Why didn't I wait to get dressed?

I may get laid tonight; I hope that's all she wants.

Lets see this shaved head?

About a week after I did it:

Now:

Wasn't really thinking clearly in any shape or form when I did it.

Whoooow, Short hair is always good. And you pull it off well.

Also Checker it like I did.

Thanks man!

That's actually a pretty cool idea, thank you

I did it for years. Bleach the shit out of it. Get ducttape make squares(dont worry it wont stick to the short hair) map out the pattert and use brushes with the black.

Sweet. If I decide to keep it short I will. Thanks a ton man.

Kit that syrup sounds so yummy.

2012 was the best and worst year of my life. The horrible bits seemed to drag on and on, but really didn't last that long. But the great bits just keep getting greater.

I'm kind of worried what 2013 has in store for me, but I know 2014 is going to be the best, so I have that to look forward to.

We got a new fancy writing desk/bereau and it looks great.

I wonder if I took ruffies while at work if I could function enough to take calls?

So long 2012. You started out kinda rough, got really awesome, then completely blew. Sorry, but I won't miss you much.

Wow, over 1,000 new posts in here. I never thought there'd be a day that I'd log in and see that many unread posts. I guess I never thought I wouldn't be gone from this place as long as I have been.

A year ago today I was counting down the minutes for 2011 to end. I was so looking forward to the start of 2012. It thought it was going to be the best year of my life. I had found what I thought was the final cornerstone to the foundation of my life. I was set. Once midnight hit I couldn't help but smile. 2012 was here and I started it the best way I knew how to and I made a call.

Little did I know that January 1st, 2012 would be the best day of this year for me. Not to say I didn't have some good days. I did, but those days were supposed to have been enjoyed a lot more had plans gone the way I thought they were. Alas, you cannot predict the future, or especially plan for obstacles, hurdles, or total blockades. The thing I can say is I have gone through them, sometimes painfully slow, but I'm through them all (at least I think so) and I'm glad I got through it all rather then getting stuck. I know its silly, but for those who know me, I didn't resort to too many drunken nights. I wasn't found passed out in a strangers front lawn. I didn't have to get a ride home form the police... well once, but that was like early in the year. Mostly, Drank Funk is a thing of the past. I have to say this has been one of the most sober years for me in the last ten years or so and I'm kinda proud of it.

Anyway, before the New Year comes I just wanted to say hello once more. It's been hard staying away from here. I figure today would be a good day to log in. I miss the things that go on here. I missed the Secret Santa (although I was invited but declined). I missed the snailmail exchanges. I miss the tomfoolery that goes on here and the continuing conversations. Most of all I miss many of you. Some less than others, but only because those I miss less I have been able to keep in contact through other means. For those of you who I haven't spoken to in a while, know that you have not been forgotten. Hopefully I can return here like before, take part in everything that is the cult and take part in your lives once more. I know this sounds all sappy and stuff, but its only because I really do value a lot of you and what we've gone through. I hope you guys think of me from time to time too. I'd feel even better knowing that some of you miss me.

Adios for now, Cult. Happy New Year.

Adidas! Come backa mcsoon!

Aw. Frank. I really do miss you being around here. Yay for facebook though!

His post made me feel a little emotional. Hope he comes back soon.

I miss you Frank. Come back and stay soon.

Hi, Frank.

Happy anniversary, Amber.

Happy New Year, everyone, I think all of you are in 2013 by now, even if by one minute