"love"
This guy and I were best friends since about last year, he was my only friend. Then at the end of last year he broke up with a girl that he "loved." Over the summer I went over to his house and spent the night. That was probably one of the happiest nights of my life, being with him. It seemed like he kinda liked me, or he just wanted to fuck but who knows. We talked all the time and when he went on trips we always emailed each other. I guess it was about then I realized I loved him, I was willing to do anything for him and told him if he ever killed himself I would also because I couldn't live without him. The friday before school I went over to his house and we had sex, and when we went to school everything was fine. This last sunday I went over to his house and we smoked some stuff and had sex again. Then on Thursday some friends were talking about homecoming and mentioned him and his old girlfriend. They said that for the past two weeks they had been going out and were going to homecoming together!
Then online I told his girlfriend and he called me saying I fucked it up and he "loves" her. Everyone I know says he doesn't really love her and he doesn't.
I have never been more depressed. I even emailed him saying that I love him but hes so blind and doesn't care. I really wish someone would just make him open his eyes and see this. He says hes changed and sees what he was doing.
Now I really have no one, all of my "friends" have left and they will because I'm changing. I really hate being depressed and I've been trying to change for awhile.
I guess we're still friends because I love him so much I can't totally let go of him. It still hurts to think he just used me because I gave everything I had to him.
So there is my wonderful post .....
"I did it because I'm a dirty dog"
First off, no guy is worth killing yourself over, no matter how much you love him. Juliet was a fool.
You need to move on and put yourself out there in the world... if you two are really meant together, as trite as it sounds, then you two will definitely be together. Give it time, and try to meet new people so you won't be so depressed.
"Come get some orange juice, it's great." -underworld
I'm sorry Nancy, but the guy sounds like a pig and a fraud. I would find somebody better.
I'm still sad that you're sad though...
"I've never caught a jewel thief before. It's very stimulating."
Frances Stevens, To Catch a Thief
"Jeff, you know if someone came in here, they wouldn't believe what they'd see? You and me with long faces plunged into despair because we find out a man didn't kill his wife. We're two of the most frightening ghouls I've ever known."
Lisa Fremont, "Rear Window"
You don't know what love is. You proved it. You're not in love with him and you never were. So now that you've been given this token of golden information... stop whining.
Yeah, and he was good.
thanks Jordie, It's nice to know some people care
"I did it because I'm a dirty dog"
[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by grade 5 dropout [/i]
[B]You don't know what love is. You proved it. You're not in love with him and you never were. So now that you've been given this token of golden information... stop whining. [/B][/QUOTE]
Where do you get that I don't and never did love him?
He never loved her ..... that's why I put "love" as the subject ....
"I did it because I'm a dirty dog"
Love is NOT willing to kill yourself just because you won't be able to be with them. That's stupid high school bullshit disguised as love becuase you THINK that's what it is.
Trust me. I'm right.
sure, whatever
I think we should have a national be nice to Nauseating_Nancy week, where one week of the whole year everyone is nice to me
"I did it because I'm a dirty dog"
a) You think you love him. But you'll only understand that in time.
The way he treated you, he is not your friend, let alone your best friend. Real friends care for the other person. Get him out of your life completely.
c) You don't know that he doesn't love his girlfriend. But either way it is not a person you would want to be with. The guy is probably a fuckwit.
I don't even know why I'm writing all this because I know for a fact that you will pay no attention. You are still too attached. But make yourself a favour and pursue other interests. Many of us have been through something similar, and you know what? It passes. Someday you will wonder what did you ever find in him. And even later you will laugh over the whole thing. For the time being, just hold on
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Back in high school I had a situation where there was a guy I really, really, really wanted to be with. So guess what? I slept with him not caring he had a girlfriend. Because I was soooooo flattered that he'd even pay attention to me at all.
Besides... he told me that he and his girlfriend had an agreement where they would share their bodies with other people but not their minds.
Of course I wanted to believe this, I wanted him so bad I would settle for anything. (dumb and 16 what can I say?)
My dearest friend in the world got me and *the girlfriend* together for a talk and we went to him together, and both dumped him. That was one of the best moments of high school.
Anyway Nancy I know how you feel, I know it doesn't help for you to know that, but try to distract yourself. Surround yourself with good friends, and know that if he's dicking his girlfriend over like that, that he would dick you over too if you were his girlfriend. So you don't want him.
"I've never caught a jewel thief before. It's very stimulating."
Frances Stevens, To Catch a Thief
"Jeff, you know if someone came in here, they wouldn't believe what they'd see? You and me with long faces plunged into despair because we find out a man didn't kill his wife. We're two of the most frightening ghouls I've ever known."
Lisa Fremont, "Rear Window"
bla bla bla
Look: I need money.
i am
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that's because youre a nigger.
seriously..your avatar freaks me out
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no..it literally scare the shit out of me
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nancy, that sucks, really it does. being depressed is a necessary part of losing the closeness you had with him. it's like grieving over the loss of a person, only they haven't died. just hang in there, and realize that no matter if you have his relationship or not, you're life is still just beginning, not ending.
if ya' need to talk about it, my email address isn't hard to find.
[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Nauseating_Nancy [/i]
[B]don't you people have anything to say? [/B][/QUOTE]
Holy desperate for attention.
[SIZE=1][COLOR=MediumTurquoise]i respect your honesty, but i detest what you're being honest about[/COLOR].[/SIZE]
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[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by The Gucci Ghost [/i]
[B]oh my god
that is SOOO racist [/B][/QUOTE]
It is not racist to say the word...It's the connotation.
Unless you're white, then it's totally out of line either way.
My sisters not doing anything today Klopper
remember Nacy, love is a four letter word.
I'd like you to tell me that you are a false prophet and that God is a superstition.
As much as I dislike you, I feel that you have been very hard done by. Can't you see that this guy is an utter fuck?And was always an utter fuck? He truly is a prat, and should be the one who's getting the rotten tomatos thrown at, not you.
My advice is that you turn over a new leaf (in every aspect), take your mind off it- take up a new hobby! Maybe even try and make some new friends, your old ones don't seem worth bothering about.
#19 has a point there
seriously though, i hate guys who do that...keep people "on reserve". i remembered there was this guy who used to confuse the hell out of me...he likes me or not? i dont know, he gave me mixed signals. in fact, a lot of men i know are like that, so i was like screw that, i dont need them anymore. and really its all biologically engrained--they have to spread their seeds to anything with a hole in it. yeah..that's right. i mean if you look at humans and the chracteristics and compare it to other mammals..humans are polygynous rather than monogyamous. the males are slightly bigger in size then the females. men dont have shrivel up testes...more aggression in men. etc etc
anyway..men are not nice guys
but there are always exceptions
i find myself doing the whole lovely dovey thing and thinking aobut him all the time routine..then i stop and question myself..but this time...i wont get burnt
or would history repeat itself again?
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Aw, soul sisters Origami.
awwwwww...??
get your hands off thingy and then we'll talk
(thingy talk is getting old..sigh)
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[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Masochism [/i]
[B]remember Nacy, love is a four letter word. [/B][/QUOTE]
ok ....
What does that mean .....
anyways guys are confusing
you think they like you and they don't, they don't act like they like you but they do
I guess that could be siad for girls also ....
[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Valchrist [/i]
[B]Holy desperate for attention. [/B][/QUOTE]
it's more like holy desperate for someone to post something
This cult needs to post more
"I did it because I'm a dirty dog"
You need to suck less.
That's definitely a zing.
Stop complaining about shit. It's unbecoming of you.
Haha, I hope the pun was intended.
Ouch.
[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by disx [/i]
[B]You need to suck less. [/B][/QUOTE]
Which kind of suck do you mean?
Because I do both ways .... I wish I wasn't so stupid ... I must get out and change myself, or do you think it's too late
"I did it because I'm a dirty dog"
Too late.
Over him already?
Stop WISHING you weren't so stupid because it's not gonna happen.
You guys are a bit harsh...
Although I do believe Nancy will feel better when she picks herself up, moves on and starts thinking about something other than this excuse for humanity, fuckhead that's got her upset.
"I've never caught a jewel thief before. It's very stimulating."
Frances Stevens, To Catch a Thief
"Jeff, you know if someone came in here, they wouldn't believe what they'd see? You and me with long faces plunged into despair because we find out a man didn't kill his wife. We're two of the most frightening ghouls I've ever known."
Lisa Fremont, "Rear Window"
seriously though
he's just a boy
just another boy
keep thinkgin like that..be hopeful, and you will feel better
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Harsh? It's called honesty.
Why get mad, when you can get even?
*ahem*
I don't wanna hear about it any more
It's a shame I've got to live without you any more
There's a fire in my heart
A pounding in my brain driving me crazy
We don't need to talk about it any more
Yesterday's just a memory
Can you close the door
I just made one mistake
I didn't know what to say when you called me baby
* Don't say good night(bye)
Say you're gonna stay forever
Oh, all the way
Can you take me high enough
To fly me over over yesterday
Can you take me high enough
It's never over
Yesterday's just a memory.
Yesterday's just a memory.
I don't wanna live without you any more
Can't you see I'm in a misery
And you know for sure
I would live and die for you
And I'd know just what to do when you call me baby
Yesterday's just a memory away
I was runnin' for the door
The next thing I remember
I was runnin' from no more
*applause*
you see nancy, he can't take you high enough...
I got no sympathy for someone who falls in love after less than six fucks...
Serves 'em right...
Besides, not trying to kick anyone while they're down, but it seems to be less about love and more about wanting to be in love... I mean, let's say he did love you like you love him... that wouldn't be cool, that would ruin the fatalistic fury of being denied that which you desire... it's like I used to be with depression. I liked it way too much. Self-fulfilling prophecy was the order of the day. I liked feeling like shit. I liked feeling unworthy. I liked wanting to die. And maybe I didn't really love those things as much as I clung to them as identity...
Better to be obsessed and full of desire, than to get what you want and realize it wasn't what you wanted after all...
The mind is the limit. I am going to be the best personal trainer to ever exist on this earth. I am going to inspire, motivate, and change lives. I have that power. There is not a doubt in my mind that I can make you have an orgasm just from the power of my mind via the internet. I'm a giver like that. I can heal you. I can make you whole. That's Brock. That's what I do. Moving on...
its as if we want drama in our lives
hence all the masochistic behaviours..as brock said
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He said he had no idea he meant so much to me
About a week ago when I told my friend how much I liked him she said I hide my feelings really good. And I do, I have to.
I guess it will always hurt a bit and I will always care for him but I guess I'm over him ..... just not really as a friend
I still talk to him online ..... I'll see about in person tomorrow ....
Hes changed I guess or is because his ex girlfriend really bitched him out and made him see shit
lol, Nothing a little alcohol can't cure
"I did it because I'm a dirty dog"
[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Nauseating_Nancy [/i]
[B]He said he had no idea he meant so much to me
About a week ago when I told my friend how much I liked him she said I hide my feelings really good. And I do, I have to.
I guess it will always hurt a bit and I will always care for him but I guess I'm over him ..... just not really as a friend
I still talk to him online ..... I'll see about in person tomorrow ....
Hes changed I guess or is because his ex girlfriend really bitched him out and made him see shit
lol, Nothing a little alcohol can't cure [/B][/QUOTE]
You sound like this girl I knew in college who fell for this guy in her law class. It's like 5 years later. He's married to another woman, and she meets him at motels whenever he feels like it. She's in love too...
If a guy has been in your pants and doesn't want to be with you but keeps lingering around it means that you are the booty call... the easy one to help bolster his self-worth when he needs to feel good about himself...
The mind is the limit. I am going to be the best personal trainer to ever exist on this earth. I am going to inspire, motivate, and change lives. I have that power. There is not a doubt in my mind that I can make you have an orgasm just from the power of my mind via the internet. I'm a giver like that. I can heal you. I can make you whole. That's Brock. That's what I do. Moving on...
exactly..like what i've said
putting you "on reserved"
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[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Brock Landers [/i]
[B]
but it seems to be less about love and more about wanting to be in love... [/B][/QUOTE]
nice. when young and the entire idea of love is new that is definetely a major problem. i blame the media haha. they never show twenty years later when the high school sweethearts are divorced and bitter about missing out on their entire life because they thought thats how it should be.
and I'm sorry but a "be nice to nauseating nancy week"? what are we, five?
time to realize there is an entire world out there and it is less like of a "you are the center of the wheel" and more of a "you are just a spoke of the wheel" kind of thing.
la-dee-da
He said he wanted to move out of the town completely but I told him to stay ....... sounds stupid but I still want to talk to him
That doesn't mean I totally forgive him
"I did it because I'm a dirty dog"
ok, how about a be nice to everyone week ....... yeah :rolleyes:
"I did it because I'm a dirty dog"
[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Nauseating_Nancy [/i]
[B]ok, how about a be nice to everyone week ....... yeah :rolleyes: [/B][/QUOTE]
I guess your name holds true. Whether it's your repulsive avatar or your bitchy, whiny posts, you truely do nauseate me.
And keep going after the man, he sounds like the one for you.
-Bohonkie
:bows:
thank you, thank you
why do you say that? (hes the one for me)
by the way I love you sig. pic
"I did it because I'm a dirty dog"
Well, under occupation, you posted "full time druggie/groupie", or something to that effect. Groupies really don't look for commitment last time I checked. It just sounds like he's fitting right into your lifestyle.
And thanks for the mad props.
-Bohonkie
bukkakeeeeeeee!
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IT'S BOHONKIE, BITCH!
PWNED
-Bohonkie
don't you people have anything to say?
"I did it because I'm a dirty dog"