This guy and I were best friends since about last year, he was my only friend. Then at the end of last year he broke up with a girl that he "loved." Over the summer I went over to his house and spent the night. That was probably one of the happiest nights of my life, being with him. It seemed like he kinda liked me, or he just wanted to fuck but who knows. We talked all the time and when he went on trips we always emailed each other. I guess it was about then I realized I loved him, I was willing to do anything for him and told him if he ever killed himself I would also because I couldn't live without him. The friday before school I went over to his house and we had sex, and when we went to school everything was fine. This last sunday I went over to his house and we smoked some stuff and had sex again. Then on Thursday some friends were talking about homecoming and mentioned him and his old girlfriend. They said that for the past two weeks they had been going out and were going to homecoming together!
Then online I told his girlfriend and he called me saying I fucked it up and he "loves" her. Everyone I know says he doesn't really love her and he doesn't.
I have never been more depressed. I even emailed him saying that I love him but hes so blind and doesn't care. I really wish someone would just make him open his eyes and see this. He says hes changed and sees what he was doing.
Now I really have no one, all of my "friends" have left and they will because I'm changing. I really hate being depressed and I've been trying to change for awhile.
I guess we're still friends because I love him so much I can't totally let go of him. It still hurts to think he just used me because I gave everything I had to him.
So there is my wonderful post .....
"I did it because I'm a dirty dog"