Buzzkill of the Day

A literary agent came to talk to us today. First buzzkill: she brought us books, but they were so crappy I didn't want any of them. Second buzzkill: a bestseller in Romania sells, on average, 8000 copies. Yes, EIGHT THOUSAND. I almost fucking cried.

Last night was a shit night. All sorts of upset. Then I saw my head doctor this morning. It worked out.

newgirl wrote:

But, the world revolves around women. tee hee

I know I'm setting myself up with this gif. Let the comments begin.

No, this Asian woman revolves around her own finger.

That said, I'm gonna be a Best Selling Author.

In Romania!!

You could tour America, to promote your writings.
Then say you reside in Romania. American guys love 1)beautiful and 2)talented 3)foreign women! And you've got all that in spades.
That's what they call a trifecta. You will be a hit and sell a Sagan of books.

...

Ok.

Such a pretty woman.

Dammit. I was reading that when a guy in the movie just now died (The Core).

Kids: Oh no!!! *whatshisface* Died!!!

Pep: *looks up* Oh That is horrible!

Kids: Then why are you grinning!!! You're grinning and he died!

Pep: *choking, failing attempt at proper decorum*

Kids: Why are you laughing!!!!!!! What is wrong with you?????

Thanks, all of you. My kids think I'm crazy now.

hahaha that's awesome. I would probably do the same thing.

Today I found out what douche bag really means. Ew.

Geeeez, 8000? Even I feel a bit down about that. Why is it so low?

Because apparently the market is in crisis and people don't read. One of our most reputed intellectuals pulls about 12000-15000 copies, but that's just a happy exception.
It's depressing.

As in you found out what a douchebag is or you found out what a Douch bag he is?

I woke up this morning with a headache from hell. My right side shoulder neck is so messed up. I also might have a little hang over but I didnt even drink very much.
My head feels like it could crack.

Property taxes.

Went up again.

And they were already through the roof as we have no sales tax in Oregon.

Fuck this shit.

I'd like to, but I am sort of obligated to pay them.

Well ya.

Also buzzkill. I am hungry.
And I have to pick someone up fromthe airport tonight at 11:45 and I am in no mood to deal with that place. But OHH i have to be a nice guy. Oh ya I am doing Xia a favor. Why you ask because I hate letting people down.

Stop at the Ihop over there on airport way and go ask for Ruby and then tell her Amber says she has to give you free smiley face pancakes.

She probably won't, but it would be funny.

But don't tell her how you know me. just say I sent you. She might give them too you, actually.

I had to run all over campus just to print my paper and I was late to class.

MOther fucking cunts. I got counted as leaving early, 28 minutes early, at work one day when they told me I could infact leave early. We have a points system and ya it is a sandwich of shit.

Stop doing Xia favors. Now.

I know. Jesus I know. I get upset even thinking about her. But I told her she owes me dinner and a drink. Plus I am atleast getting gas money.
God damn.

Why are boys always stuck on the crazy mean bitches? Why, Noah, whyyyyyy? Stop doing this to yourself!!!

Oddly enough she has been really nice.
We talked a couple nights ago and I explained to her how I feel. So we will see. I loved the girl, thought I would marry her and she was my best friend.

Oh and my day gets better. I found out that I will no longer have my own desk and will have a different seat every day.

probably the same reason girls are always stuck on the asshole guys?

And I can't imagine what you're going through with this girl Noah. I hope you can find time away from her soon. You need a break.

This call center is known as a shitty call center. They are making everyone sahre desks because they over staff for the hollidays and know that the people that work here will bitch and complain but never actually do anything. Because if we do they will just fire us and hire someone else.
As for Xia its not just he. I do miss her as stupid as it sounds. I just need a break. But I cant take one becuase that means no money.
But I am doing meditation and breathing techniques that seem to be helping. SO maybe I wont loose it.

Well keep at it, the meditation and whatever else that helps.

Buzzkill of the day: I took a nap it's only 7:30 but if feels super late!

yeah, and vent at us as much as you need.

Secondary Buzzkill of Today: Unless I miscalculated dates Tuff spent the day either in an fantabulous hotel and/or at Disney Land and has not told us a word about it.

I Want To Know About Disneyland!!!!

*stomps feet and pouts and whines and other pretend stuff that I do not actually do but sounds silly enough for this part of my post*

I found out what the word means.

Last night I told a girl in my class about cutting and suicide attempts. Then she told me she'd been going through the same stuff in her teenage years so I felt a little better about pouring my heart out like that.

When did you attempt suicide?

I have been truly suicidal three times in my life, as well as having intruding suicidal thoughts this past year without being to the point of considering attempting it, just thinking, but never gone so far as attempting* it.

*not completely the truth

When I was younger and clinically depressed. Not in the past 5 years anyway.

It is not a good thing Irina, but don't be ashamed about it.

Would you like to know why I love you? You are always telling me.

I love you because I know there are things I could tell you that I have never told anyone and you would understand and accept them, and even if I do not tell them, just that alone is comforting and I adore you for it.

Why is the world so big? I wanna be there and give you a hug right now.

Whelp you were all right again. Xia doesn't do nice just makes attacks and is mean and hurtfull. She tells me I have to give her money but don't get any of my deposite back. So I tell her I am going to leave. Then I offers to still help her out and she then attacked me again.

Speaking of suicide almost offer myself a bit ago before I got on Prozac. Then it got better. Now I keep trying not to fall back into that mess but then I step back and I keep.picking bridges out. To live under or fall.of off.
Eh don't mind me I am on my phone being in a terrible mood.

Sorry to bitch but when it gets dark my mood flops. Ya I'm being a bitch.
And its not just the lady business its a lot of shit.

Seriously, no more Xia.

Well I'm sure he can't cut her off completely at the moment but yeah you need to find a way to avoid her all together even if that means distancing yourself away from good friends. Just explain to people what is happening and that you just need a break.

No more Xia. Noah.

No more Xia. Noah.

No More. No More.

No More Xia.

You Love Her but you have to give yourself the time to reconcile that love. You have not had space yet, you have not stepped back and breathed.

If you want to be friends with her, you need to step back as much as you can for now.

Time For Noah.

not xia

She threatened legal.action and that shit. Sneaking in getting my shit. Writing a check and cutting my losses

God she sounds like a bully. Yay for The Offspring being in the thread.

This kitten is so hyperactive and he's harassing Henry. Sometimes Henry bites him and he makes awful noises, it's a bit stressful.

I have the worst bags under my eyes because I can't stop tossing and turning in my sleep. I fucking hate the bed in my flat.

My boyfriend's students found his Facebook and mine.

My firm have decided not to promote anyone this year, including myself (my performance manager, the driving force behind my promotion, was made redundant).

FFS!

I attempted suicide two and a half years ago. Then, I spent five days in the psychiatric ward of a hospital that's about a half hour away. Those were very dark days. The people in there seemed to have a lot worse issues than me and it made my stay there even worse. One woman was a garbage truck driver and had backed the truck over her partner at work and killed them. I had no appetite and they had to check your plate and make note of everything you ate. I literally had to choke down my food. I did everything I was told, just to get the hell out of there. It was an awful experience on top of a suicide attempt. I was taking 12 to 15 Xanax a day at the time, and had become so depressed and couldn't fight off the suicidal thoughts. I went into rehab about a month after my stint in the psych ward. I truly believe it was the drug abuse that put me in that position. Horrible time in my life and I wish to never go back.
Noah, please stay away from Xia. I worried for you and she is being a bully and taking advantage of your sweetness. She is very cruel.

She's a user. She feels entitled to everything you can give and more, cuz that's pretty much what you'd been giving her the whole time. Things have fucking changed.

If you write her a check, she's not gonna go away. She'll just keep acting nice and cuddly with you whenever she needs something else. Threaten to call the cops on her for stealing, harassing, anything that would send the message to her that you're not gonna be fucked with. You'll do what's right, and that's that. She can fuck off if she can't understand that.

I don't know what "Why the fuck must you be only 22?" means.

It means the person who said it is much, much older than 22.

And they wanna fuck you.

Shut up! He's 27.