Buzzkill of the Day

The anesthetic hasn't worn off yet and I've been biting my cheek like crazy. I know because I can taste the blood. Can't open my mouth to see the wound yet, though. And haven't eaten anything in 7 hours. I'll probably have youghurt for breakfast tomorrow.

You know nothing of my people.

My friend/ex of 2 years just got married. I am super happy for her but I am pretty sure I will never see her again, atleast not for more than a passing. She is still someone I consider to be one of my best friends. We ended on good terms and were still super close. But her Husband has never liked me and has always seen me as a threat. I have made piece offerings. Explained to him that I am no threat and convinced her not to leave him more than once. She thanks me for sabving there relationship but he is threatened by me. I dunno, I am happy she is happy. But sad because everytime I see her he gets pissy.

On a lighter note they had a peganish wedding.

I didn't do any writing today.

Also I can barely watch porn on my computer now. Most sites run like slideshows. No idea why.

i want to know what a pegan wedding looks like.

I was trying to decide if he meant Pagan or Pregnant.

That sucks about losing your friend. Jealousy is evil.

my spellcheck wanted to make it a pecan wedding.

There was an enormous, like 5 pound guinea pig living on the roof of my cousin's house in Colombia. I was standing kind of far away, watching the pig enthusiastically eat a head's worth of lettuce (this was also its bed and favorite place to poop) when I saw the 5 year old kid who lived there sneaking up behind it. She got really close and then screamed BOOOO and I swear to god the fat guinea pig jumped at least 4 inches off the ground. It totally let itself be picked up by her later in exchange for more lettuce. What a whore.

Of course later I found out my cousin's husband is from near Peru and I'm PRETTY sure they eat guinea pigs where he's from. The whole situation now seems much darker in retrospect.

They stay crunchy, even in milk!

That's true. There's no way that guinea pig has not been eaten. No way.

Capybara Crispies! Part of this nutritious breakfast!

Also this:

Noah! Look away!

I'm not that fussed on them either. You know, my boyfriend's brother and his wife have (had) 2 guinea pigs, they've JUST had a baby, one of the guinea pigs got ill and they paid about £800 total taking it to multiple operations and medications it needed and had to get up in the night to feed it with a syringe and it just died anyway. I couldn't understand why they were wasting so much time and money on it when they had a new born baby. Yes yes you love the guinea pig but come on, don't be crazy about it. Surely the poor thing would have been stressed all the time anyway! One operation was enough.

This being said, I'd have sold my new born baby to gypsies to save my cat.

I hope my timetable is going to change during these 2 weeks that I don't have classes like normal people, because it sucks. On Monday I should have 4 free hours between two seminars, and I should be doing a course with the pedophile-looking professor who speaks very slowly and in a super boring way that doesn't make you wanna listen. Meh.

I heard an amazing band at this parade in Paris today, and I tried to find out who they are from the website. And the picture of the band is on the website, but I've gone through all 30 bands on there, and none of them is it. And I counted the pictures on the site, and there are 31 pictures and 30 bands. Seriously, what the fuck? I NEED to know the name of this band.

I tried to take a nap and someone was who was very poor at the instruments was practicing the drums in one of the houses on the next block over (the houses out back with their back to ours).

As soon as I gave up and got up, they stopped.

Gum on my shoes. Both of my shoes. Gonna freeze them one at a time and chip it off.

SoI'm sick, and I got bloke to have the day off to help me out and drive me to the docs as I can only see out of one eye. But, he's the one having a sleep on the couch, and Lucy is snoozing on me.

So twice while driving my car has shut down on me.

Fuck.

He needs to get it together! It's important to look after baby-momma.

GRRRR I hate all these stupid bitches on secondment from overseas.

Just because you probably had a personal slave when you were working in India, I am not your new one. Up yours hoe!

I had to look up "secondment".

I agree, it's a silly word.

Just got in from work to a phone call telling me my granmother is in hospital.

I wasn't ready for that.

Pagan wedding. I blame spell check, or whatever else.

Got super drunk in california, puked in the morning. Friday night had a bit of a breakdown about my relationship and now I am trying to catch up on a lot of posts.

I feel like a post in hear a lot more than I should.
Same shit different day. I hate smoking, but I really want one right now.

May have something wrong with my ENC, whatever that is.

It has something to do with your engine.

I'm not a car person.

What do you mean by ENC?

I'm not a car person either, but I have basic knowledge of how a regular old engine works and ENC isn't ringing a bell, but that might be because I am dumber about cars than I think I am.

I have had this shit overwhelming feeling of dread all day. Randomly had tears coming out of my eyes. WTF

Oh man. I'm sorry.

I've been crying most of yesterday, so I can relate, Noah.

I hate when I have emotional, teary days like that Noah. that's usually a sign I need a good cleansing cry. You may need a good ole cry Noah. If nothing else you won't have that knot in your throat and tears welling up anymore. You really will feel better. It takes a lot to make me cry, because I'm one that shoves those feelings way down deep. That always catches up though and I have one of those days Noah. It's time to let those tears fall. Hope you feel better

Whelp it all went crazy last night. Went out with Xia and saw a movie, then went to a bar, tried talking to her on the drive but that didnt work. We had a good night but I realized over the weekend that if things dont change I am done.
So we get home and I tell her to sit down, that we need to talk or we need tocall it quites. We talk, we both cry a shit ton, we devide its best if we break up. See I love her with all my heart. I give her 100% of what I have and I get her left overs. Long story short, she loves me, wants to marry me one day, cant imagine her luife without me and would give anything for things to go back they way they were. She realized, as did I, that we didnt want to break up but we couldnt stay together if things didnt change. She came to the realization that a lot of this is on her and her lack of trying. She admitted that the lack of love is her part becuase of her lack of effort. We have decided at this point to stay together. I love Xia in ways I cant explain. But I have also realized that things are going to change and be okay. We break up and I move on, we stay friends and things work out that way. Or our realationship improves,both our needs are met and fullfilled and it works out that way. Regardless to kill the buzz kill I am okay. We both want to be with eachother but we both see that changes need to happen one way or another.

I also have a really stiff neck.

Almost breaking up was the best thing to happen to my relationship. We've been super close since then, it's a little bizarre.

Here is hoping.

Something electrical to do with the engine that's supposedly very expensive to fix and I only have about $300 in my account and I need a second job and my mom keeps telling me to go to school to be an X-Ray tech and AAAAAAAAAAARGH!

I need to get laid.

I need a good break up.

For the breakup sex?

Sure. I'm just bored. He's bored too. I saw him this morning and there was a moment when we just sized each other up for like two minutes, looking for something to fight about. I realize adequacy is douchebag thing to complain about but everything's been sooooo nice for months and it's going to kill us.

Yeah and sometimes things seem too good and i'm expecting something bad to happen or i feel like there's just something one of us should be mad about.

No fuck that. There is nothign more fucked than that situation.

There is a small black cloud of doom following me sometimes.

I got one of those too.

I feel ill and it's not hangover-related for once.

My immune system didn't stand a chance - everyone sitting around me at work is claiming to feel ill too.

However, the biggest buzzkill is that the 5-year-old Welsh girl, April Jones, that was abducted from her estate earlier this week is now presumed dead. What's especially horrible is that the man they've arrested was a family friend and has kids of his own (whom often played with April).

I missed my first class at uni today. I feel so rough, the cold that everyone else has must have finally got me. It's like I've been hit in the head right now.

Yes missing April is seriously sad, now he's been arrested will he tell them where he left her? He probably killed her and everyone has been looking for her and he just stayed quiet, it's so awful.

Band of Horses is cancelled. Also, 2 of my dogs have been missing for 2 days now and they're not at the pound. We've spent the last 2 nights roaming the neighborhood listening for their barks. No fun. This week turned out to be shit.

Aw man, I'm sorry to hear that. I wish our dog would go missing, but noooooooo, it had to be my precious cat.

I hope yours come home, though.

That really sucks Stephen. Do you think someone stole them? Are they a particular breed or could they use them for breeding? Have you told the police? Are they microchipped? I really hope you find them, that's such a shit thing for someone to do.