First Experiences.
The first time that I watched Fight Club, and the first time that I read the book, I was getting about as much sleep as I am now on a regular basis. That is to say, probably two or three hours a night. (A maximum of six to seven before I wake up and can't sleep anymore, no matter how tired I am.) It literally drives me insane, at least to the extent that I can't really divide between my conscious and subconscious very effectively. The fact that most of my subconscious is the "darkness" means that it really, truly comes to the surface when I don't get enough sleep, meaning that most of the time my mindset isn't really my own. (Could I really be demon posessed? If hell is real, then I could very well be. I'd imagine that there's some sort of external force that's protecting me in some way or another. Perhaps it's simply defying the odds, but I somehow doubt that. Especially when I'm this tired.) At least I get to sleep on public holidays, seldom though they may be. Even so, I was sort of taken aback by the whole "Tyler Durden" personality, because it was so damned close to what I was becoming. There was a even time that I thought (at the time, and now still think) that I was going insane. Apparently, it was the post traumatic stress syndome rearing its ugly head, but I don't know of any traumatic incidents that happened that would have or even could have caused that. In any case, it started in some class or another. I don't remember much of it, which isn't really any suprise (especially considering that I didn't pay any attention, anyhow). I was reading the textbook for the pure hell of it, the teacher was talking about something or another, and the white board was empty. What seemed like seconds later, I glanced up and fell off my chair. The white board was full, and the teacher was in the back of the room. I looked back down, and I was in an entirely different section. I had no recollection, and still have none, of what happened during that time. It had only been a few minutes, but it scared me shitless. It esecalated from there, totally unpredictably. At once point, I "blanked" for three weeks straight. I was acting entirely normally, but I started taking notes on what happened so that I wouldn't act too abnormally or forgetfully. Eventually, after the last bout a few years back, it totally stopped. However, when I watched Fight Club, I realized how damned close that was to what I was becoming the sort of opposite equivelant of. I was Tyler, but blanking out and becoming Joe, or Jack, or whatever the protagonist's name was, but I was the same person the entire time. It fucked with my head.
wanking doesn't help me fall asleep. it makes me even more awake.
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Thats cuz yo'ure a ghiorrlll Duh!
um...but it's still wanking, still leading to orgasm, still leading to endorphins you were speaking of. how is it different, besides the lack of ejaculation? it shouldn't be different in terms of relaxation...
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chicks ejaculate, just differently, and some not as much.
i dont go to sleep as fast as i used to after orgasm,,, then again, i dont jerk off before i sleep. well, not directly before i sleep.
i dunno how to help you insomnomaniac, try gettin stoned.
youre dreams will be weird, but you go to sleep.
just play some pink floyd, but not the dark sode of the moon, cus that alarmclock pisses me off. atleast it does then im high... or when my speakers are too loud.
cheers
I'm waiting for you. With butterflies.
i also have insomnia sometimes when i get drunk/stoned.
i had insomnia when i got mono.
i get insomnia if i try to wank too close to bedtime.
i get insomnia whenever i'm stressed,
and if i take my medication too close to bedtime, i have insomnia.
hence my screen name. *bows*
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I had insomnia when I had mono. Course, I was little kid, and could be entertained by cartoons and Disney Channel made-for-TV movies all night long. I hate those things now. Except for Zim.
It is true that a chemical is released in men that induces sleep after orgasm. This does not occur in women. Evolutionary psychologists figured this stuff out.
(The sirens for weather are going off outside here at midnight... it's a beautifully eerie sound. A high-pitched squeal with overtones. Sounds like the lost part of a Pink Floyd album, especially with the thunder in the background.)
bite me
i wish i could hear that
I'm waiting for you. With butterflies.
I masturbate quite regularly, especially when I write. (Somehow, it seems to be "dead" if I don't have a hardon while I'm scribbling words onto paper, in wet black ink. Half the time, I'll take a break to "finish myself off", then immediately get it back up again. How can you be passionate about something, without an erection? Without being aroused, I mean, in general...) This includes jacking off before I go to bed, but I'll inevitably orgasm two or three times in a night before I get to sleep. Sometimes more.
It's quite surreal...
[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by insomnomaniac [/i]
[B]um...but it's still wanking, still leading to orgasm, still leading to endorphins you were speaking of. how is it different, besides the lack of ejaculation? it shouldn't be different in terms of relaxation... [/B][/QUOTE]
maybe it's because chix take a while to cum. i can get the job done in 5 minutes or less sometimes. if it took 20, i'd be more awake then before i started.
"We dont care about your typing, we just care about your content and your content blows. This is due to you being a fuckstick." -Lazlosdead
"And once again i find myself saying thank you to a little valium" -ArcherDylan27
"Wow, that's a lot of valium for one thread!" - Vigorous Puppy
[QUOTE]maybe it's because chix take a while to cum. i can get the job done in 5 minutes or less sometimes. if it took 20, i'd be more awake then before i started.[/QUOTE]
you have a point.
and jaron...i think it's possible to be passionate about something without an erection...it's not like i sit on a dildo when i write...it's possible to be passionate without wanting to fuck whatever it is you're passionate about...but hey, whatever works for you.
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*can't help picturing kitty typing while straddling a tofu dildo*
"We dont care about your typing, we just care about your content and your content blows. This is due to you being a fuckstick." -Lazlosdead
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whatever gets you off, valium. 
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if jaron's philosophy was right, about having to be rock hard when youre into something, i'd be passionate all day long about most anything
i should prolly see a doctor, or replace ron jeramy
I'm waiting for you. With butterflies.
see with me, after i wank sometimes i can fall right asleep right after, lik even before cleaning up. but other times after im done i havta open the windows and blare out some nirvana or dropkick murpheys, anything thats hard hitting and makes you shout "OY"
in the summer i had a small case of insomnia, not fun stuff, n0o joke i began seeing things, not like plane out figures in front of me and shyte. i began seeing shadows outta the corner of my eye and running around corners and stuff like that. the worse part was i became paranoid when laying in bed. i had to wrap myelf up in blankets like a shield and only then i could fall asleep
The funny thing is, I don't get turned on by sexuality anymore. Not usually, at least. I can sit there, watching porn videos or going at a gorgeous woman or watching her masturbate and writhe under her self-administrations. Anything, really, but it simply doesn't give me a hard-on, and why? Because I'm not PASSIONATE about it. It doesn't really matter to me.
knox when you dont sleep you see things
its like in fight club "when you have insomnia everything is far away" i had this expierence one summer (usually in the summer i dont sleep on my own but then it leads to insomnia and it takes me AWHILE to sleep) i was in a car and while we were driving i couldnt help but notice that everything felt so far away. This was after 2 weeks of no sleep
yeah i guess thats the best way to describe it, you feel like your in your own lil spot and everythign is far away. i didnt get the copy of a copy of a copy part. but i guess it means everythign is so far away and seems to take forever to do things (like going through copys of copys of copys to get to the original and get some work done on it) but yeah messed up shyte man. the othe rnight i thought i started seeing thigns again, water started pouring down from my walls in the basement
[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by insomnomaniac [/i]
[B]you have a point.
it's not like i sit on a dildo when i write...[/B][/QUOTE]
:eek:
Jeesus. After that, you are in my head!
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Speaking of which, I haven't slept for days.
My [i]BODY[/i] is a copy of a copy of a copy of a copy of a copy. My arms are a million miles away, and my fingers are a mile further. God damn it...
although judging by how i've been blocked lately, maybe i SHOULD sit on a dildo when i write.
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Do I get pictures?
only if you send me money.
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on monday, apparently we watched a movie in class,,,, i had no idea.
i was asleep, when you are sleep deprived, you can still function while dozing, my teacher had no idea i was asleep cus i made a few simple movements to make it look like i was taking notes.
but if you cant sleep, try gettin in a quick wank before you turn off the light, endorphins do the body good.
I'm waiting for you. With butterflies.