wak to

I wake up to

A vibrating

Throbbing

Horrifying sound

A shrill

Incriminating

Sound

Scattered yellow pills

Shattered windows

Shaking plates

Earth quake level

Hate.

I wake up

To

Bacon and eggs

A pair of sexy legs

A sick feeling in my stomach

A hard on

I press down on my dick

I’m still dreaming

I am only 6

I am still dreaming

My life is nothing

But the

Imagination

Of a child

That looked sad one day

And was put on paxil

Now universes are created in his mind

And his reality is rendered useless

A vegetable sustaining infinite individuals

Whole fucking planets

And life times a thousand times over

In seconds

The sound

The throbbing penetrating sound

Quiets and I sit up in bed

And look over to the table

Grab my note book and write

And it all seem far fetched and

stupid when put down

In black and white on the page.

So I lie back down and close my eyes and forget about the world and dream my little fantasies that help me drift off to sleep…

GAP