Outline seeking worthiness of Expansion
College was useless. I've been enrolled in four of them, from first tier to community. True education does not occur in an encompassed setting at designated intervals adhering to strict schedules. Monotony sets in the first week and most people embrace the comfort and security of it all. Each class is given a time slot and a syllabus of material it will drone through over the period of a few months so that in a week or so everything involved in that first semester has set expectations that are designed to meet those expectations and nothing more. The most visceral experience a college may induce is having one's head lying a toilet seat as vomit and spit drip from their mouth, serving as a lesson in alcohol and our relationship to it. It is used to release our inhibitions, expand our social horizons, to get over the lies we live and the tears we cry and bury them in drunkenness. Its rampant use in college can be attributed to having to bid our youth farewell and numb the pain caused by the growth of our awareness to the consistencies of life. Childhood dreams get buried in the past as lies our parents told us come into fruition. Students are groomed to be complacent with simplicity. They become ships in bottles with nowhere to sail. Once graduated they embark into society blending in with the status quo of the middle class with little experience and knowledge to show for it besides mundane bureaucratic trivialities.
It was books that taught me that the things that tormented me most were the very things that connected me with all the people who were alive, or who had ever been alive.
That's what I'm in the midst of attempting to do. I went to Boston College and wound up nearly having a nervous breakdown, the best term I can come up with for it because it wasn't nearly an existential crisis but, I knew I wound up on the wrong path and couldn't come up with an alternative solution and be able to justify it to myself at that time.
It was books that taught me that the things that tormented me most were the very things that connected me with all the people who were alive, or who had ever been alive.
What did you want us to do about this?
Join the military.
THIS IS THE HAPPIEST TALE EVER TOLD EVER.
Two blondes walked into a train track. Between the two of them, you'd think they'd--
buy a gun, shoot the fuck out of everyone in this board.
"Matt, you pretty much just SLAMMED your square ass right in this round hole. You've officially fit in." - Six On The Dot
buy a gun, shoot the fuck out of everyone in this board.
and by everyone, Matt means just himself. He's tired of life.
buy a gun, shoot the fuck out of everyone in this board.
and by everyone, Matt means just himself. He's tired of life.
he's tired of life
tired of backstabbing ass snakes with friendly grins
tired of committing so many sins
tired of always giving in when this bottle of Henny wins
tired of never having any ends
tired of having skinny friends hooked on crack and mini-thins
tired of this DJ playing YOUR shit when he spins
tired of not having a deal
tired of having to deal with the bullshit without grabbing the steel
tired of drowning in my sorrow
tired of having to borrow a dollar for gas to start my Monte Carlo
I'm a real nice guy, loyal to his family and friends, like to help old people and I play well with children, but there is a very dark side to the moon. A predilection for the psychopathic, I have a history of violence I would like to herald always as ancient history. But some guys just wont listen, just wont let go.
how did i miss this for soooo long.
Chris, you haven't been your usual joyous self towards me of late. i'm beginning to think you no likey me.
"Matt, you pretty much just SLAMMED your square ass right in this round hole. You've officially fit in." - Six On The Dot
i forgot to use teh sarcasm font
i know you were joking, mate.
while we're on the topic. is there a sarcasm font, or is it just this ongoing joke that there isn't actually a sarcasm font, although it would be of great use?
what should here is: there should be a literal font. that way, everything would be taken as either sarcasm and nothing would be taken seriously, unless of course it was typeset in the "literal/to be taken seriously" font. am i right?
"Matt, you pretty much just SLAMMED your square ass right in this round hole. You've officially fit in." - Six On The Dot
thats the whole point. to turn you into a round peg to fit into your designated little hole. you don't have to allow it, but it's easy to talk the talk. few people have the strength or vision to jump the rails society sets them on with any kind of success.