So, I was going through some of my old stuff and found one of my comp. books. Since my handwriting is shit, I cant read most of what I wrote except for two poems. Figured I may as well share them first. These were written about 5 years ago. The comp book with my real good stuff went missing into the void of divorce. Anyway here we go.
Maybe I smoke to much
and maybe I drink to much
maybe I care to much
and maybe I should just let go
Cause I cant stand the voices screaming in my head,
and I cant take the faces that haunt me when I go to bed.
Maybe I've done all I can
and maybe Im not your type of man
Maybe your incapable of caring,
amd maybe I should just let go
There comes a time when enough is enough,
and for me that time is now
Maybe its all a bad dream
and maybe I'll just wake in a cold sweat
Maybe I've given to much of myself
and maybe to much is never enough for you
I shroud myself in darkness
to hide whats deep inside
Nothing is ever what it seems
and now Im getting tired.
Tired of trying and tired of the lying
For now Im content with what I am
I deserve nothing more and wish for nothing less
The time will come when I am whole again
Until that day I will reap what I have sown
I shall pay the highest cost to buy back my sins
and patiently wait for my penance to begin.
The first I like more than the second. Opinions and or thoughts ?